Saturday, December 31, 2011


Okay, so here it is, New Year’s Eve. I’m spending it with a favorite friend of mine, Captain Morgan and waxing philosophical.
I’ve been fighting depression for weeks.  I ask myself, why?  I think I’ve figured it out.  I’m tired of not getting what I want.  Is that selfish?  If so, then so be it, I’m selfish. Deal with it.
The key in getting what you want is to know exactly what you do want.   This sounds simple enough. Right? However, you’d be amazed to find how difficult a question this is for people.  They can tell you what they don’t want but stumble over what they do want.  (I have to apologize for the Captain.  He isn’t a writer and doesn’t give even one tiny Yo-ho-ho on how many words he repeats.)
Here’s an example of what I’m talking about: people say, “I don’t want to be poor.”  Wrong!  Say instead, “I want unlimited abundance to come to me in a very joyful way.” (You have to put that disclaimer in there, “in a very joyful way” because your favorite uncle might die in a car crash and even though you inherit all his money, you miss him something fierce.  Thus the meaning of the old saying, “be careful what you wish for.”)
Another example: “I don’t want to be fat.”  Wrong!  “I want to be slim, trim, and healthy.”  See where I’m going here?
Am I rambling?  Sorry.  It’s the damn Captain.
The thing is, I’ve been saying this mantra for years and my bank balance is still zip.  The scale still moans when I step on it.
I’m tired of it, damn it!
I just can’t imagine that God created us to struggle so. Think about it. Why would He want His children to suffer?   If He liked seeing this, then He wouldn’t be God, would He?  (Captain Morgan is so logical.) God wants us to be happy!  If  you follow this reasoning, then another old saying, “you create your own reality” is absolute.
According to the Miyans’, 2012 is the end of the world.  Good! I've had it with toiling from 8-5 in a dead-end, God awful boring job.  Let it be the end of me worrying how I’m going to pay my bills. Instead of me always thinking about what I don’t want, I will focus all energy on what I do want.   And, believe me I have a list a mile long.
Do you?
Ask yourself on January 1, 2012, "What do I want?"

Okay, that’s enough  deep thinking. 
Right now, I want another drink.
Happy 2012 everyone!


  1. Ahahaha! I love you, Ruth. Happy New Year! I know what I want: some of your Captain Morgan's :)

  2. You got it sister! 2012 is the Year of the Ozark Writer. We're going to take the literary world by storm.

  3. Happy New Year, Mike!
    The Captain says hi!

  4. Luna,
    We are going to turn the literary world up-side-down. Fresh voices and fresh characters.

  5. Pam, Happy New Year to you and Jack!

  6. Happy New Year, Mike!
    The Captain says hi!

  7. Happy New Year, Ruth :)

  8. Happy New Year, Dixie Ruth. Bloody Mary and I send a toast and a hug to you and Captain Morgan! Love you and look forward to great times in 2012!

  9. You and Captain Morgan made a fine team. Loved your post with its humor and insight. I think I shall put your "deep thinking" to good use--not as a resolution but as a consistent resolve.

    Happy New Year--may it be prosperous and healthy.

  10. My dear Palooski65, I love you, woman! 2012 is the year of believing and getting what you desire. Start today!

  11. Jan,
    Bloody Mary and Captain Morgan. What a great title for a short story or novel.
    Drink up, girl. 2012 is the year of Broken Dolls.

  12. Happy New Year to all!

    Cheers to the Captain and Mary

  13. Ruth, I think you should have kept a copy of my little story, "The Perils of Heavy Thinking."

    In fact, I would trade a copy for a shot of rum :)